April showers bring May Flowers...

Although the title has nothing to do with the stuff I'm about to write I've always loved that saying. Being at the end of April and beginning of May I thought it would be appropriate. This time around when I started my blog I had promised myself and anybody out there who's reading it that I would update regularly. I was going pretty good actually until February. I guess I had a alot going on and no time to update. During my gone time I worked alot, got lots of orders and stuff. Then put the zippers aside and started working on the spring/summer collection which I just completed. Hopefully tomorrow I'm going to upload them to my site and facebook page. Thought I go with the flowery theme for this season. Its just perfect :).

Besides the defist stuff alot of other stuff happened. I went through a major personal trauma at the end of February beginning of March. My life flipped upside down in one day. It took me like a month to come out of the dark. I went to Ankara during that time. Normally in such situations I usually like being alone by myself during the healing process. However for the first time I couldn't stay alone. I thought I was going to lose my mind. I spent 2 weeks at my friend Zeynep's house. Her mom and Vehbi were like therapy for me while she wasn't there. I thank God for introducing such great people to my life. Then with a sudden decision I went to Ankara and stayed for over a month. That was some good therapy too. The best medicine in the world is a person's mother :) Then my dad came back from Poland for good. After a very long time all four of us were together once again. Besides family my days in Ankara were spent with Basie, Dilvin, Banu and Demet. Lotsa love to you girls, thanks for all the support. Then it was back to Istanbul time.

I'm soooo much better now. Life goes on even if you don't want it to. Its back to work, life and friends. Oh a big change is I started Yoga. Its soo good for my mind, body and soul...Basically def's back and she ain't going nowhere :)

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow....

Snow White Dreams

For the past two weeks, the most important topic of our countries daily agenda was the snowstorm we were expecting. Everyday it was on the news on tv, the newspapers, the radio and whatever other form of media that exists. It was basically the talk of the town. However we had so many such warnings before so no one takes its seriously until it actually happens. This time it truly happened. Yay :) Like I said before I go crazy when it snows. I fill up with this positive energy. I just have to get outside and endulge myself into it. And thats exactly what I did yesterday. I got together with my friend Ozge and we went by the beach. We took a nice walk, took photos and just rolled around in the snow. It was great. Too bad it only lasted one day :( Afterwards I met up with my friends at Starbucks, they all got out of work early due to the snow. Here in Turkey life is totally parallel to the weather. Everything revolves around it. The minute it snows like crazy, traffic is horrible-your time on the road is tripled, work lets you out early etc. etc. etc. Anyways we had our coffees and cakes at Starbucks and then headed home. The snow stopped in the evening and didn't start again. Oh well were only in January, there's still a February and March's worth of winter to look forward too :)

Heal the World - Help Haiti

HELP HAITI

After Basie left, I started devoting all of my time to my designs. Staying in all day and just working is how my days were spent.
During this time something really tragic happened. A major earthquake hit Haiti killing thousands and thousands of people, and leaving the ones who survived homeless, hungry and without their family. Having experienced the same tragedy here in 1999 I totally understand what they are going through and pray for them everyday. I know everyone wants to help but they do not know how. There are official help websites, hotlines, sms ways to help. Everyone should research the methods of their own country cause if we don't help each other than who will? I know Unicef is doing alot all around the world and the Red cross as well. There is a simple way for everyone to help. Don't ever forget that it could happen to you or your loved ones and just put yourself in the place of those people... Here are some websites to lead you:

http://www.helphaitinow.org/

http://www.worldrelief.org/

http://www.redcross.org/

http://www.unicefusa.org/

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/

Rainy days with Basie...

I'm back after some time of no show. My friend Basie was here trying to arrange some photo shoots and catalog stuff for her company. I always have a great time when she's here, she's like a sister to me. In between her meetings we hung out alot here and there. During her meetings I spent my time working on designs and cooking. While out one day with her she saw this knit scarf that she liked alot. It was too expensive cause it was so easy to knit and the yarn would cost only 1/10th of store price. Soooooooo I secretly bought some purple yarn, purple is her favorite color and knit secretly every night after she went to sleep. My aim was to finish it before she had to leave but I was too tired and couldn't. And then when she said that she would be back in a week I was relieved. Perfect ! That's when I'll give it to her.

We always watch movies and stuff together, we watched the "Bride Wars" and the "Ugly Truth". Two great movies with actors and actresses I love, especially Gerard Butler :) Oh the whole time she was here it poured non-stop. Like a joke, the day after she left it stopped raining!

Dark dark day

There are days in your life where you just wish you didn't wake up. On those days you struggle to get yourself out of bed. You're weak and have no strength or wish to move. But life goes on so you try to get yourself on track. But no matter what you do, you just can't.
Today was one of those days. I woke up with a headache, weak as hell. I couldn't think at all. I was totally out of order. The whole day was like that. I was extremely emotional. A friend of mine told me that they might be moving in a few months. They live right next door. It made me so sad as if they were leaving the country. That made me think about the consequences of me wanting to leave the country one day. Although I want to very much, the thought of it cuts like a knife. I have to get my used to thought slowly so that when the day comes I won't go into a coma. Being the emotional person I am, no matter how I try I probably won't get used to the thought completely. Anyway back to today. It was a loss of a day for me. It was sad, heartaching, hopeless, dark, lonely, no way out.. every other negative thing you can think about with a major headache as icing on the cake. I was supposed to go to a birthday dinner of a very dear friend of mine but I couldn't because of my headache. I slept for like 4 hours in the evening.
When woke up I decided to treat my self to Mcdonalds. I ordered from the internet and took about one and a half hour to come. Normally it comes like in 20 minutes. I was starving. Unlike pizza places they don't have the "if were late than its free" policy. Anyway I ate it all up and topped it with a chocolate donut.. Did it make me happy? Temporarily yes, but in the log run my conscience is bugging me because I'm extremely careful with what I eat and drink do to health problems. Cheating once in a blue moon isn't gonna kill me..
That was today, its gonna be completely over as soon as I fall asleep. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be back to normal..