Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow....

Snow White Dreams

For the past two weeks, the most important topic of our countries daily agenda was the snowstorm we were expecting. Everyday it was on the news on tv, the newspapers, the radio and whatever other form of media that exists. It was basically the talk of the town. However we had so many such warnings before so no one takes its seriously until it actually happens. This time it truly happened. Yay :) Like I said before I go crazy when it snows. I fill up with this positive energy. I just have to get outside and endulge myself into it. And thats exactly what I did yesterday. I got together with my friend Ozge and we went by the beach. We took a nice walk, took photos and just rolled around in the snow. It was great. Too bad it only lasted one day :( Afterwards I met up with my friends at Starbucks, they all got out of work early due to the snow. Here in Turkey life is totally parallel to the weather. Everything revolves around it. The minute it snows like crazy, traffic is horrible-your time on the road is tripled, work lets you out early etc. etc. etc. Anyways we had our coffees and cakes at Starbucks and then headed home. The snow stopped in the evening and didn't start again. Oh well were only in January, there's still a February and March's worth of winter to look forward too :)

Heal the World - Help Haiti

HELP HAITI

After Basie left, I started devoting all of my time to my designs. Staying in all day and just working is how my days were spent.
During this time something really tragic happened. A major earthquake hit Haiti killing thousands and thousands of people, and leaving the ones who survived homeless, hungry and without their family. Having experienced the same tragedy here in 1999 I totally understand what they are going through and pray for them everyday. I know everyone wants to help but they do not know how. There are official help websites, hotlines, sms ways to help. Everyone should research the methods of their own country cause if we don't help each other than who will? I know Unicef is doing alot all around the world and the Red cross as well. There is a simple way for everyone to help. Don't ever forget that it could happen to you or your loved ones and just put yourself in the place of those people... Here are some websites to lead you:

http://www.helphaitinow.org/

http://www.worldrelief.org/

http://www.redcross.org/

http://www.unicefusa.org/

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/

Rainy days with Basie...

I'm back after some time of no show. My friend Basie was here trying to arrange some photo shoots and catalog stuff for her company. I always have a great time when she's here, she's like a sister to me. In between her meetings we hung out alot here and there. During her meetings I spent my time working on designs and cooking. While out one day with her she saw this knit scarf that she liked alot. It was too expensive cause it was so easy to knit and the yarn would cost only 1/10th of store price. Soooooooo I secretly bought some purple yarn, purple is her favorite color and knit secretly every night after she went to sleep. My aim was to finish it before she had to leave but I was too tired and couldn't. And then when she said that she would be back in a week I was relieved. Perfect ! That's when I'll give it to her.

We always watch movies and stuff together, we watched the "Bride Wars" and the "Ugly Truth". Two great movies with actors and actresses I love, especially Gerard Butler :) Oh the whole time she was here it poured non-stop. Like a joke, the day after she left it stopped raining!

Dark dark day

There are days in your life where you just wish you didn't wake up. On those days you struggle to get yourself out of bed. You're weak and have no strength or wish to move. But life goes on so you try to get yourself on track. But no matter what you do, you just can't.
Today was one of those days. I woke up with a headache, weak as hell. I couldn't think at all. I was totally out of order. The whole day was like that. I was extremely emotional. A friend of mine told me that they might be moving in a few months. They live right next door. It made me so sad as if they were leaving the country. That made me think about the consequences of me wanting to leave the country one day. Although I want to very much, the thought of it cuts like a knife. I have to get my used to thought slowly so that when the day comes I won't go into a coma. Being the emotional person I am, no matter how I try I probably won't get used to the thought completely. Anyway back to today. It was a loss of a day for me. It was sad, heartaching, hopeless, dark, lonely, no way out.. every other negative thing you can think about with a major headache as icing on the cake. I was supposed to go to a birthday dinner of a very dear friend of mine but I couldn't because of my headache. I slept for like 4 hours in the evening.
When woke up I decided to treat my self to Mcdonalds. I ordered from the internet and took about one and a half hour to come. Normally it comes like in 20 minutes. I was starving. Unlike pizza places they don't have the "if were late than its free" policy. Anyway I ate it all up and topped it with a chocolate donut.. Did it make me happy? Temporarily yes, but in the log run my conscience is bugging me because I'm extremely careful with what I eat and drink do to health problems. Cheating once in a blue moon isn't gonna kill me..
That was today, its gonna be completely over as soon as I fall asleep. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be back to normal..

Mix up of a day...

My day starts at 11:30 when I open my eyes to the world. First I open the windows, turn my computer on, wash my face and get myself together. I check my emails, read the news, check out facebook and twitter. Then I eat my breakfast and the daily routine begins.. Breakfast-apple-white tea-lunch-apple-white tea-dinner- apple-milk in 2 hour intervals. Oh and lots and lots of water in between all the eating. My day ends towards 3 o'clock in the morning. See thats my normal day.
Today was not a normal day. My phone rang at 10 a.m. when I was in dream lalaland. I picked it up, it was a good call with good future potential. However my daily cycle got totally screwed up. I didn't continue sleeping and got up but my mind was in a haze. I couldn't concentrate at all. I was mentally and physically shaken. I just couldn't get myself together and I had sooo much to do today. Finally by 4 pm I got my act together somehow and headed out to take care of my errands. The weather was great, definitely not like your typical January. I took care all of my business and walked a little then came home. Finally I had come to myself. My eating cycle got screwed up too so I kept getting dizzy and got a headache in the end. It was at like 7pm that I totally got myself together.
Now I'm watching the "24" series finally after so many people told me too. And working on orders at the same time. I can't work in silence. I have to have nice music or a good movie or tv show in the background. This weeks lucky winner is Kiefer Sutherland and the crew of 24. Last week it was Vampire Diaries..
Well I got lots of work to do after killing more than half of the day.. So I got to gooo.. See ya..

DEFIST - Defist - defist

These past two days I've been working non-stop. Well almost non-stop. I have to eat every two hours and drink lots of water, white tea, green tea etc. So its all work, eat healthy and no play until the job's done. Its fun working from home, it's what I've always wanted. It's great cause you yourself organize everything. Basically me, myself and I do everything. Although it gets a little tiring from time to time I totally enjoy it.

While creating one design so many new ones keep popping up on my mind. I think that I need to clone myself so that I can create all of them at once :)

Anyway I think that I'm done for today, I don't want to push too hard.

See yaaa...

Dream a little dream

The first weekend of 2010 is already over, wow time has started to fly quickly again. I wish it would slow down a bit, I mean what's the rush right? Saturday was another stormy day here. I was home most of the time, then I went out with my friends for dinner and coffee. It was fun. Sunday was a lazy day spent at home. The best part of the weekend was Sunday night when it started snowing.

When it snows, I go totally crazy. I get extremely excited. It gives me great joy to watch and play with it and roll around in it.. I totally love it. I sat by the window with a glass of milk and cinnamon and watched the snowflakes floating through the air. It was such a peaceful view. Each snowflake was sculpted so delicately and intricately. I coudn't take my eyes off of them, they were sooo dreamy.

I'm glad I stayed up and watched the beautiful snowflakes because when I woke up in the morning there was no trace of snow at all.. The ground was dry and the sun was shining. It was like a dream. So I posted this song to go along with it...

Gotta go for today. Got lotsa work to do. My aim for this month is to sell at least 100 products :) See yaaaa..

My favorite MJ song - HUMAN NATURE...

I remember the year 2000 like it was yesterday with the whole millenium craziness. I can't believe that 10 years have already passed.
2009 was a year of ups and downs. The biggest ups for me were finding the most precious love a girl can dream of and reliving the NKOTB dream with my sis Basie. The downs were the economic crisis which led to unemployment-financial problems-debts-parental pressures and it goes on an on. Another major downer of 2009 was the loss of Michael Jackson, he was my childhood, my teenage years, my adulthood, basically a major part of my whole life. His sudden death was tragic deeply saddening all of my generation. He was one of the greatest creations of God to come to life, I feel very lucky to have seen this greatness in person. May you rest in peace MJ, love you.
As for me what did I do this whole year? Well I wasn't able to make any longterm plans because of the fact that I might start working at any time. There were so many courses etc I wanted to take but I wasn't able to devote myself. You have all the time in the world, but have to be careful spending money. When you have all the money in the world, you have no time to spend it...Life!!! Basically most of my time was spent job searching, taking walks and riding my bike at the beach during my time in Istanbul.
One of the good parts of being unemployed was that I got to spend lot of time with my family who live in another city. I got to stay with them for long periods of time. The best part was that I spent nearly 3 months in our summerhouse with them. The last time I got to do that was back in college.
While there I got to my jewellery and accessory designing. I started designing all the way back in college. I made numerous stuff for myself and my friends. I never made any money from it back then. Then all of a sudden jewellery making became a major trend here and one out of every 5 people started making and selling jewellery. This made me nauseous and it didn't feel special to me anymore so I just let it go for quite a while. To me art is precious, it shouldn't be so out in everyone's hands.
Anyway I started working on some designs again but not with the typical beads and stuff everybody uses. I started using fabrics, buttons, ribbons, felt and all sorts of other materials. Some really good stuff stared to come out which led me to create my own brand called "defist". You can see and buy my designs on my blogsite: http://www.def-ist.blogspot.com/. For the first time I actually earned money for my designs. It's a great feeling and it opened so many doors for me in this area and I feel that more are going to opent thanks to my supporters, the greatest friends in the world, especially Dilhan :)
With all that in mind, I concluded this year with two parties. One Christmas/ Pre New Year's party at my house with my friends from Digiturk. We had a blast, I decorated the house like crazy. The second one was new years eve with my buddies where we went to Serdar Ortac which was also a blast.
Here I am day one of 2010 on an extremely windy stormy day. What did I do today? Absolutely nothing. Too tired to think or do anything. I watched tv, surfed the internet and just relaxed.
I'm very hopeful for this new year. Usually I don't feel so strongly about new years but as the Black Eyed Peas say "I got a feeling", that this years gonna be a good year, one I'm never gonna forget, one I'm gonna tell my kids about :) see yaaaa..