Airplanes - make a wish right now...

Wishing....

Wishing always gives me hope, that's why everyday as I pass under the Bosphorus bridge either by boat or by car I make a wish and its the same wish day after day. I was told as a child that wishes you made while under a bridge came true...I have one wish that I want more than anything else in this world. Thats why day after day I wish for it....
Another wish object is the first star, the brightest star or a shooting star. Since its rare to see shooting stars I usually make a wish on the first star I see, which is usually the brightest one with the typical phrase "starlight starbright first star I see tonight, I wish I may, I wish I might, Have the wish, I wish tonight".
Its nice to daydream because it gives you hope and something to look forward too. I totally recommend it :)

On an island with the stars of LOST...

Last night there was a party at Su ada which is man made island in the middle of the Bosphorus with restaurants, clubs and a swimming pool. The party was for the opening of a new channel on a digital platform and my dear Dilhan invited me too :) The most important part of this party was that it was the network which broadcasted LOST in Turkey. So for the new channel party they brought Sayyid and Jin from LOST, Ben Mckenzie from OC and SOUTHLAND and Shemar Moore from CRIMINAL MINDS.

In the beautiful atmosphere of the Bosphorus Ozan Dogulu deejayed the whole night and there were live performances by Sila, Beduk, Bora Uzer and Kenan Dogulu. Everyone was after the LOST stars especially Sayyid. But unfortunately Naveen was trapped in a special section with the general manager of the network along with some department heads and a bodyguard standing in front of them. He looked totally bored. He got up and came next to us for pictures without us even asking him. Very sweet and good looking guy. Jin and the others were in the special section next to them bu not trapped like Naveen was. Anyways I got my picture with Naveen and drank the night away. At the end of the night while we were waiting for the boats to take us back Naveen came to board his boat and after a nice stare he waved goodbye and got LOST in the deep waters of the Bosphorus heading to Angelique to continue the party there.

Sun, sand, swimming...and my birthday!

This past weekend I opened the beach season at my friend Zeynep's summerhouse. There's nothing more peaceful in the world then lying under the sun, with music that soothes your soul on your ipod, the sound of the waves crashing, the sweet wind blowing and the sand between your toes...All your worries go away. Thats exactly how my weekend was :) The only sad part was that the remnants of the flood that happened at the end of last summer were there.. Half of the sand where we used to sunbathe was burried under the salty water.
I guess I was really tired, I spent the whole weekend sleeping. In the moments when I was awake I was either at the beach, out eating or watching the world cup. I send my deep respect to whomever invented those vuvuzuelas...The only thing I'm gonna remember from this world cup are them. Nothing interesting happened sports wise.
We came back to the city on Sunday which was my birthday. I thank God for all of my loved ones. I'm very lucky to have them in my life. My phone rang all day long and my facebook wall was full of greetings..This year I didn't really feel like celebrating or organizing anything. But on Sunday night we celebrated my birthday along with Zeynep's moms bday which was the next day at their local hangout. It was fun :)

Rihanna Concert

Last night I went to Rihanna's concert with my friends thanks to the invites that Dilhan and Seher arranged for me :) I love her music up to her last album. Its like a rock music album. I like rock don't get me wrong, but Rihanna's previous type of music was much better if you ask me. She sang all her popular songs and stuff, they were great. Not knowing what to expect from her stage perfomance I was a little let down. She basically just sang her songs and left. She had dancers and all but there was something missing. I guess I'm used to the major theatrical stages, costumes and choreography. Kylie Minogue is one of the ladies when it comes to live performance in every aspect. Rihanna wore the same costume the whole show. She basically sat out most of the songs, I don't know if she was tired or if thats how she always is. However all in all it was a good show..

There is one thing that I have to mention though. Unfortunately people here do not know how to watch a concert. There is a constant circulation of people passing around you, pushing you, bumping into you..I just don't get it. If you're not gonna watch the concert then why do you come in the first place. Its disrespectful to the artist and to everyone around. I'm right a manual on how to watch concerts for these people...

Sailing out to new seas...

After about a year and a half away from corporate life and working at home, I'm back to working again. But this time its the kind of job that I've been waiting for. Out of all of the places I worked at, as for the content of the job, my favorite one was the basketball federation. This time I'm going to be doing similar things but for sailing races. So far I have finished my first week at work and everything is going dandy. The people are great. I adjusted immediately. My friend Erinc is superb helping me out in everything. I'm so grateful to Kivanc, Dennis and Erinc for this opp. :)

Summertime

I'm such a summer person. I just love it...I wouldn't mind if the whole year was summer. I do like snow and skiing and all but I could always go somewhere for that. Since I last wrote I've been working on orders and stuff. I attented this arts and crafts bazaar. It was an interesting experience. I met alot of cool and creative people. Besides that I'm up and about all over the place with my friends and all. When it comes to my friends, I don't know whats up with 2010, but as for relationships, it has not done too many people good. Two of my closest couple friends, one married and the other practically married are on the very of break up. Its a total shocker to me because these two relationships were the ones that I always looked up too and that gave me hope. My friends are going through a really hard time and it hurts me too. The sad part is besides trying to be there for them at all times there is nothing more you can do to fix it. I pray for all of us that our broken hearts get mended asap...

April showers bring May Flowers...

Although the title has nothing to do with the stuff I'm about to write I've always loved that saying. Being at the end of April and beginning of May I thought it would be appropriate. This time around when I started my blog I had promised myself and anybody out there who's reading it that I would update regularly. I was going pretty good actually until February. I guess I had a alot going on and no time to update. During my gone time I worked alot, got lots of orders and stuff. Then put the zippers aside and started working on the spring/summer collection which I just completed. Hopefully tomorrow I'm going to upload them to my site and facebook page. Thought I go with the flowery theme for this season. Its just perfect :).

Besides the defist stuff alot of other stuff happened. I went through a major personal trauma at the end of February beginning of March. My life flipped upside down in one day. It took me like a month to come out of the dark. I went to Ankara during that time. Normally in such situations I usually like being alone by myself during the healing process. However for the first time I couldn't stay alone. I thought I was going to lose my mind. I spent 2 weeks at my friend Zeynep's house. Her mom and Vehbi were like therapy for me while she wasn't there. I thank God for introducing such great people to my life. Then with a sudden decision I went to Ankara and stayed for over a month. That was some good therapy too. The best medicine in the world is a person's mother :) Then my dad came back from Poland for good. After a very long time all four of us were together once again. Besides family my days in Ankara were spent with Basie, Dilvin, Banu and Demet. Lotsa love to you girls, thanks for all the support. Then it was back to Istanbul time.

I'm soooo much better now. Life goes on even if you don't want it to. Its back to work, life and friends. Oh a big change is I started Yoga. Its soo good for my mind, body and soul...Basically def's back and she ain't going nowhere :)

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow....

Snow White Dreams

For the past two weeks, the most important topic of our countries daily agenda was the snowstorm we were expecting. Everyday it was on the news on tv, the newspapers, the radio and whatever other form of media that exists. It was basically the talk of the town. However we had so many such warnings before so no one takes its seriously until it actually happens. This time it truly happened. Yay :) Like I said before I go crazy when it snows. I fill up with this positive energy. I just have to get outside and endulge myself into it. And thats exactly what I did yesterday. I got together with my friend Ozge and we went by the beach. We took a nice walk, took photos and just rolled around in the snow. It was great. Too bad it only lasted one day :( Afterwards I met up with my friends at Starbucks, they all got out of work early due to the snow. Here in Turkey life is totally parallel to the weather. Everything revolves around it. The minute it snows like crazy, traffic is horrible-your time on the road is tripled, work lets you out early etc. etc. etc. Anyways we had our coffees and cakes at Starbucks and then headed home. The snow stopped in the evening and didn't start again. Oh well were only in January, there's still a February and March's worth of winter to look forward too :)

Heal the World - Help Haiti

HELP HAITI

After Basie left, I started devoting all of my time to my designs. Staying in all day and just working is how my days were spent.
During this time something really tragic happened. A major earthquake hit Haiti killing thousands and thousands of people, and leaving the ones who survived homeless, hungry and without their family. Having experienced the same tragedy here in 1999 I totally understand what they are going through and pray for them everyday. I know everyone wants to help but they do not know how. There are official help websites, hotlines, sms ways to help. Everyone should research the methods of their own country cause if we don't help each other than who will? I know Unicef is doing alot all around the world and the Red cross as well. There is a simple way for everyone to help. Don't ever forget that it could happen to you or your loved ones and just put yourself in the place of those people... Here are some websites to lead you:

http://www.helphaitinow.org/

http://www.worldrelief.org/

http://www.redcross.org/

http://www.unicefusa.org/

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/

Rainy days with Basie...

I'm back after some time of no show. My friend Basie was here trying to arrange some photo shoots and catalog stuff for her company. I always have a great time when she's here, she's like a sister to me. In between her meetings we hung out alot here and there. During her meetings I spent my time working on designs and cooking. While out one day with her she saw this knit scarf that she liked alot. It was too expensive cause it was so easy to knit and the yarn would cost only 1/10th of store price. Soooooooo I secretly bought some purple yarn, purple is her favorite color and knit secretly every night after she went to sleep. My aim was to finish it before she had to leave but I was too tired and couldn't. And then when she said that she would be back in a week I was relieved. Perfect ! That's when I'll give it to her.

We always watch movies and stuff together, we watched the "Bride Wars" and the "Ugly Truth". Two great movies with actors and actresses I love, especially Gerard Butler :) Oh the whole time she was here it poured non-stop. Like a joke, the day after she left it stopped raining!

Dark dark day

There are days in your life where you just wish you didn't wake up. On those days you struggle to get yourself out of bed. You're weak and have no strength or wish to move. But life goes on so you try to get yourself on track. But no matter what you do, you just can't.
Today was one of those days. I woke up with a headache, weak as hell. I couldn't think at all. I was totally out of order. The whole day was like that. I was extremely emotional. A friend of mine told me that they might be moving in a few months. They live right next door. It made me so sad as if they were leaving the country. That made me think about the consequences of me wanting to leave the country one day. Although I want to very much, the thought of it cuts like a knife. I have to get my used to thought slowly so that when the day comes I won't go into a coma. Being the emotional person I am, no matter how I try I probably won't get used to the thought completely. Anyway back to today. It was a loss of a day for me. It was sad, heartaching, hopeless, dark, lonely, no way out.. every other negative thing you can think about with a major headache as icing on the cake. I was supposed to go to a birthday dinner of a very dear friend of mine but I couldn't because of my headache. I slept for like 4 hours in the evening.
When woke up I decided to treat my self to Mcdonalds. I ordered from the internet and took about one and a half hour to come. Normally it comes like in 20 minutes. I was starving. Unlike pizza places they don't have the "if were late than its free" policy. Anyway I ate it all up and topped it with a chocolate donut.. Did it make me happy? Temporarily yes, but in the log run my conscience is bugging me because I'm extremely careful with what I eat and drink do to health problems. Cheating once in a blue moon isn't gonna kill me..
That was today, its gonna be completely over as soon as I fall asleep. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be back to normal..

Mix up of a day...

My day starts at 11:30 when I open my eyes to the world. First I open the windows, turn my computer on, wash my face and get myself together. I check my emails, read the news, check out facebook and twitter. Then I eat my breakfast and the daily routine begins.. Breakfast-apple-white tea-lunch-apple-white tea-dinner- apple-milk in 2 hour intervals. Oh and lots and lots of water in between all the eating. My day ends towards 3 o'clock in the morning. See thats my normal day.
Today was not a normal day. My phone rang at 10 a.m. when I was in dream lalaland. I picked it up, it was a good call with good future potential. However my daily cycle got totally screwed up. I didn't continue sleeping and got up but my mind was in a haze. I couldn't concentrate at all. I was mentally and physically shaken. I just couldn't get myself together and I had sooo much to do today. Finally by 4 pm I got my act together somehow and headed out to take care of my errands. The weather was great, definitely not like your typical January. I took care all of my business and walked a little then came home. Finally I had come to myself. My eating cycle got screwed up too so I kept getting dizzy and got a headache in the end. It was at like 7pm that I totally got myself together.
Now I'm watching the "24" series finally after so many people told me too. And working on orders at the same time. I can't work in silence. I have to have nice music or a good movie or tv show in the background. This weeks lucky winner is Kiefer Sutherland and the crew of 24. Last week it was Vampire Diaries..
Well I got lots of work to do after killing more than half of the day.. So I got to gooo.. See ya..

DEFIST - Defist - defist

These past two days I've been working non-stop. Well almost non-stop. I have to eat every two hours and drink lots of water, white tea, green tea etc. So its all work, eat healthy and no play until the job's done. Its fun working from home, it's what I've always wanted. It's great cause you yourself organize everything. Basically me, myself and I do everything. Although it gets a little tiring from time to time I totally enjoy it.

While creating one design so many new ones keep popping up on my mind. I think that I need to clone myself so that I can create all of them at once :)

Anyway I think that I'm done for today, I don't want to push too hard.

See yaaa...

Dream a little dream

The first weekend of 2010 is already over, wow time has started to fly quickly again. I wish it would slow down a bit, I mean what's the rush right? Saturday was another stormy day here. I was home most of the time, then I went out with my friends for dinner and coffee. It was fun. Sunday was a lazy day spent at home. The best part of the weekend was Sunday night when it started snowing.

When it snows, I go totally crazy. I get extremely excited. It gives me great joy to watch and play with it and roll around in it.. I totally love it. I sat by the window with a glass of milk and cinnamon and watched the snowflakes floating through the air. It was such a peaceful view. Each snowflake was sculpted so delicately and intricately. I coudn't take my eyes off of them, they were sooo dreamy.

I'm glad I stayed up and watched the beautiful snowflakes because when I woke up in the morning there was no trace of snow at all.. The ground was dry and the sun was shining. It was like a dream. So I posted this song to go along with it...

Gotta go for today. Got lotsa work to do. My aim for this month is to sell at least 100 products :) See yaaaa..

My favorite MJ song - HUMAN NATURE...

I remember the year 2000 like it was yesterday with the whole millenium craziness. I can't believe that 10 years have already passed.
2009 was a year of ups and downs. The biggest ups for me were finding the most precious love a girl can dream of and reliving the NKOTB dream with my sis Basie. The downs were the economic crisis which led to unemployment-financial problems-debts-parental pressures and it goes on an on. Another major downer of 2009 was the loss of Michael Jackson, he was my childhood, my teenage years, my adulthood, basically a major part of my whole life. His sudden death was tragic deeply saddening all of my generation. He was one of the greatest creations of God to come to life, I feel very lucky to have seen this greatness in person. May you rest in peace MJ, love you.
As for me what did I do this whole year? Well I wasn't able to make any longterm plans because of the fact that I might start working at any time. There were so many courses etc I wanted to take but I wasn't able to devote myself. You have all the time in the world, but have to be careful spending money. When you have all the money in the world, you have no time to spend it...Life!!! Basically most of my time was spent job searching, taking walks and riding my bike at the beach during my time in Istanbul.
One of the good parts of being unemployed was that I got to spend lot of time with my family who live in another city. I got to stay with them for long periods of time. The best part was that I spent nearly 3 months in our summerhouse with them. The last time I got to do that was back in college.
While there I got to my jewellery and accessory designing. I started designing all the way back in college. I made numerous stuff for myself and my friends. I never made any money from it back then. Then all of a sudden jewellery making became a major trend here and one out of every 5 people started making and selling jewellery. This made me nauseous and it didn't feel special to me anymore so I just let it go for quite a while. To me art is precious, it shouldn't be so out in everyone's hands.
Anyway I started working on some designs again but not with the typical beads and stuff everybody uses. I started using fabrics, buttons, ribbons, felt and all sorts of other materials. Some really good stuff stared to come out which led me to create my own brand called "defist". You can see and buy my designs on my blogsite: http://www.def-ist.blogspot.com/. For the first time I actually earned money for my designs. It's a great feeling and it opened so many doors for me in this area and I feel that more are going to opent thanks to my supporters, the greatest friends in the world, especially Dilhan :)
With all that in mind, I concluded this year with two parties. One Christmas/ Pre New Year's party at my house with my friends from Digiturk. We had a blast, I decorated the house like crazy. The second one was new years eve with my buddies where we went to Serdar Ortac which was also a blast.
Here I am day one of 2010 on an extremely windy stormy day. What did I do today? Absolutely nothing. Too tired to think or do anything. I watched tv, surfed the internet and just relaxed.
I'm very hopeful for this new year. Usually I don't feel so strongly about new years but as the Black Eyed Peas say "I got a feeling", that this years gonna be a good year, one I'm never gonna forget, one I'm gonna tell my kids about :) see yaaaa..